How you doin sexy? Lol, fine thanks?
Watcha listenin' to? A random playlist in mah meTunes x]
Why didn't you post in me D: ? Shhhh I'm gonna explain in the post.
Well first of all, Happy Holidays to everyone. I haven't been posting recently due to numerous random stuff. Mostly my addiction to Dragonica~ xD. I haven't really been in the mood to post, and I really don't feel like posting a lot just random stuffs.
I'm still in a rut, but I have new classes! AP Calculus (BOO!), Spanish II (BOO!), Constitutional Law (BOO!), and I still have English and US History (BOOOOO!!!!!). I miss Psychology, that class was funnnnnn Dx. Anyways, classes have begun to be bearable. I KNOW PEOPLE! 8D. OH! I LEARNED LIKE, THE FIRST PART OF THE PIANO IN HARU HARU!! BWAHAHHA!!! I'm kinda itchin' to get a new phone, most likely a new Sony Ericsson... =3=... Another red one... Oh well. I'm gettin kinda poor. I still need to get some people some gifts. I JUST REMEMBERED, THE LAST TIME I POSTED I STILL HAD LONG HAIR! T.T Like a few days before X'mas, my grandpa made me get a haircut or else he would've taken my car away..... That's cheating... Hella cheating...
Err.. Anyways... One time after school it was HELLA raining, and me 'nd Patrick were walking to the car, but like right when we got to the car, it left. IT. LEFT! LMFAOOOOO WE WERE HELLA LAUGHING. IT WAS LIKE *walking, about to open the door* *VWWRRRRRROOOOOOOMMMMM!!!!* LMAOOOOOOO!!! Lucky for us the car just went around... and picked us up.
Well... That last lil' flashback was the main reason xD Dunno what else to do... I might as well say what I'm feeling at the moment. I have the feeling that no one logs on anymore so might as well.
I know I've made a lot of promises to you, Dear. I've tried my best to keep my word, truly. And I know you're tired of hearing this, but I'm sorry. Everything I've done to hurt you, please understand that it wasn't on purpose, or driven by malice. No one is perfect. Please don't jump to conclusions, I'm not like leaving forever or anything of the sort. Think of it as a "sudden burst of insight". Sorry for realizing so late, that I'm not the one for you. I stayed, tried and tried again to make you happy, and I keep hurting you. I know now that as long as we're seperated, be it different schools and other causes and distractions, that it won't work. Not right now. I may suspect that you don't feel the same anymore and I understand, but I'm just making sure that we're both clear. The most I can do is simply be your friend and nothing more. I'll still talk to you, text you, listen to you when you need to rant, but it'll never be the same. I'll fall for you all too easily, there's just something about you. I can't explain it, nor do I understand why. There's just... something. A sensation I guess. Either way, we won't be that close anymore, not to me at least. I know this sounds kind of pathetic, me blogging all this instead of telling you. But honestly, I'm hoping that you won't have to read this. And no, I'm not trying to be noble or anything like that. I just, don't wanna break your heart anymore than I've done in the past. You probably wondered at some point why I still text saying "ily" and "i<3you", and I mean that, but not like that. I love you as a friend, same like I love Jv and my other close friends. So I guess this'll be the last time you'll hear me say "I love you..." sincerely and from the bottom of my heart. Well for now at least...
And with that, I'll prolly stop xanga-ing a bit. I'll be back on Xanga soon enough though, I know it.
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